Two Paths…

When the Priest bound their hands, at their bizarre, disorganised, beautiful wedding – the same Priest who would Christen their children – I realised it was all I would never have.
Twice, it hadn’t been right.
Twice, I’d shrunk from the question.
And instead, I would stand, years from now, bound in sequins and red cloth, shaming my [...]

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Good at Giving Up..

“Just don’t give up trying to do what you really want to do.
Where there is love and inspiration, I don’t think you can go wrong.”
- Ella Fitzgerald.
I’ve always been good at giving up.  First came ballet and horseriding, then meat, and church and God.  At times I’ve given up trying, given up my self respect.  [...]

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Quarter of a Century..

I am a quarter of a century old today.
(And coincidentally, this is also my blog’s 100th post)
I have done nothing I had planned to do before I hit this milestone.
And I am nowhere near.
I have done little I am proud of, and little that I regret.
My mistakes make me who I am, and my achievements [...]

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Eighteen Empty Years..

Sometimes, when one person is absent, the whole world seems depopulated
- Allphonse de Lamartine
It’s over eighteen years since my Granddad died.  I’m close to the majority of my family, but I was closest to him.  And since the day he passed, the world has seemed a little emptier than it should.  There’s been a [...]

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I Miss You So..

A frumpy old woman pinned me into a bridesmaid dress that was made out of what I can only describe as scratchy, crappy, cheap material.
She said I looked beautiful, but we both knew I actually looked ridiculous.
When the Fiance had said, “I don’t want anyone to look prettier than me!”, she wasn’t kidding, and she [...]

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I Have This To Regret..

“Looking back, I have this to regret, that too often when I loved, I did not say so.”
~ David Grayson
Nearly four years ago, despite me being in a relationship, someone asked me to marry them.  Granted, it was after we’d slammed three shots of tequila in a row.  But he meant it, and I knew.
He [...]

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Childhood Fears..

Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood.
Marie Curie.
What were you most scared of as a child? Are you still scared of those same things now?
When I was a kid, I wasn’t scared of anything. There were no monsters under my bed, there were no skeletons in the [...]

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Forgive and Forget..

After ignoring my calls for a significant amount of time, my best friend called, and said the three words I dreaded most..
“Can we talk?”
And so, we talked.
(Well, he bullshitted, and I listened.)
“I didn’t mean it, any of it, it was just pre-wedding jitters, and I’m sorry.
I know I’m an asshole for complicating things, so can [...]

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Before I Die..

This site contains a (strangely, horizontal..) list of polaroid pictures of real people, each with a caption that states what that person would like to do before they die.
Here are some of my favourites polaroids from the site..

What do you want to do before you die?
My answer is below. :-)

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It’s Only Love..

I came across possibly the most appropriate animation I’ve seen of a song, since.. Well, since forever.

It’s only love. Nothing else.
It’s not enough, and it wont do.
God bless YouTube for providing me with these little gems of animation and music rolled into one perfect package.. :-)

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